Honest Journaling

Writing Challenge: July 15, 2018

Prompt: What prevents you from completely honest journaling?

 

Even in my personal journals- I lie.

I omit and smudge the truth,

because I am afraid of bare honesty.

I am afraid that one day, other people may see

who I am.

But even worse,

Far, far worse.

I am afraid of seeing the truth in myself.

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Not Like a Flower

Writing Challenge: July 14, 2018

Prompt: “She wasn’t fragile like a flower. She was fragile like a bomb.”

She was fragile, but not a porcelain, not like glass. You weren’t afraid of breaking her. You weren’t afraid of crushing her or causing her to shatter. No. She wasn’t fragile in that way. She wasn’t fragile like a flower.

She was fragile like a bomb.

She wasn’t one to bruise- she was one to explode. She came with her own caution sign, but no safety manual. You never knew what would set her off, but you knew to be careful not to light a fuse

Self-Care

Writing Challenge: July 12, 2018

Prompt: What are 5 things I could do everyday to take better care of myself?

1- Exercise. I do have a fairly physical job, but most of that is walking, light lifting, and bending. That keeps me busy but doesn’t do much for me in the way of being “fit”. I need to start putting real time aside to bring up the heart rate and build strength.

2- Drink less caffeine and more water. Between work and school I am exhausted all the time. I drink more coffee than I should and I need to cut back on that and replace it with some more water.

3- Add Relaxation/Meditation Time. I am guilty of working myself until I am too mentally and physically exhausted to do anything except lay in bed and watch Netflix. I’ll be too tired to think, to read, and too tired to even relax. Instead of killing brain-cells with mindless entertainment I should try meditating or doing a creative activity to full unwind.

4- Eat at home more. I actually love to cook and am quite good at it, but when school is in session I find myself having less and less time to prepare meals with me to take to classes and work. Because I’m not eating at home or bringing food from home I end up wasting money on unhealthy food that’s easy to buy and eat between activities. It’s a terrible habit both financially and physically.

5- Set a sleep schedule. I have felt exhausted nearly every day for the last month, and I know it’s because I haven’t been getting good sleep. Part of this is from the heat. I do not have air conditioning in my apartment, so now that it’s July the temperature is between 95-100°F outside and 80°F in my bedroom. It is not easy to get to sleep and stay asleep when it’s hot. In addition to that, I have an irregular sleep schedule. I work the night shift and come home from work around 1:30am, then have to wind-down before trying to drift off. With the sun rising and shining through the window at 6am, and me not actually falling asleep until 3am my body is confused about when it’s supposed to be asleep and when I should be awake, leaving me ready to nap all the time.

The Hard Way

Writing Challenge: July 11, 2018

Prompt: In 6 words or less, write about learning the hard way.

 

Well, that didn’t go well.

Now I know for next time.

I saw. I tried. I failed.

I didn’t learn from their mistakes.

They warned me. I ignored them.

Could be better, could be worse.

Steps Toward My Dreams

Writing Challenge: July 10, 2018

Prompt: What are some small steps you’ve taken toward your dreams?

Step 1: I am in school. This is such a small but obvious step. I have been in college for 6 years and have been attending full-time for the entirety of those years. I have changed my mind a few times, but I have really buckled down on what degree I want.

Step 2: I practice my writing. Again, this is a small, but important step. I have challenge myself to write every day, even if it’s just these little prompts. They are short, and my responses aren’t artistic, but they keep me thinking, keep me working, and keep me practicing by keeping that little “writing center” part of my brain active.

Step 3: I changed Majors. This was almost a step backwards in a way. After nearly completing two degrees as a double education major (History Education and English Education) I decided to take another route and major in writing studies. This was a tough decision to make as education is near and dear to my heart, but ultimately, I knew that teaching was not a plausible option for me at this point in my life. I hope to go back into education one day.

Step 4: I am doing my internship. Technically an internship wasn’t really a choice as it is required for my degree, but I did choose how to fill my internship requirement. I choose an internship that allowed me to try my hand at technical writing as well as marketing, and I’ve really enjoyed both aspects of the job. This internship has given me practice, and flexibility in controlling my work responsibilities, but most importantly- this internship has shown me that switching majors was the right choice for me.

Step 5: I am starting to look into potential careers. After nearly a decade of being on the “teacher-route” I suddenly have a million options to look into after graduation. It’s both exciting and intimidating. The last few months I’ve started to look into potential job options for me and have begun to narrow down the field.

 

Nervous Laughter

Writing Challenge: July 9, 2018

Prompt: Write a story that uses the line “who smiles at a time like this?”

 

“Who smiles at a time like this?” He looked at me with eyebrows raised and eyes wide, examining me for any mental instability.

“I can’t help it. I’m a nervous laugher. When I get stressed, I start to laugh.” I knew it was crazy, but I couldn’t resist the smile the twerked my cheeks.

“You better find out how to stop it, or we’ll both be in even more trouble.” He shook his head in disbelief. “Besides, it’s kind of creepin’ me out.”

His remark set me off over the edge. Now, I went from smiling to chuckling.

“Cami…” I knew he meant to reprimand me, but as my chuckles grew into full laughter, he began to follow suit. When our boss came in to yell at us for losing one of our office’s best clients, she found us both laughing like hyenas in her office.

Leaving the Path

Writing Challenge: July 8, 2018

Prompt: Write about the moment you decided to leave the path

It was early summer. The weather was warm, but not quite “hot” yet. The sky looked as if it couldn’t decide whether to rain or shine. I went up to one of the many canyons splitting the state, eager for a moment of reprieve.

The canyon was almost empty. I didn’t see another soul beyond the parking lot. I followed the main path as I began my climb up the canyon. The golden dust swirled in puffs around my feet as I ventured forward toward the mountain trees. Looking back, I could see the steel gray of Utah Lake waiting in the distance.

The path was steep, but clearly marked. Rough rocks and powdery sand rolled under my boots. To my left there was a dry riverbed half-hidden among a grove of trees. Did I dare leave the main path to explore? A flutter of butterflies danced in the grove- white, and otherworldly. How would I resist their fairy call? That was the moment I decided to leave the path.

 

 

Ideal Life

Writing Challenge: July 7, 2018

Prompt: What is your ideal life?

In my ideal life I am stable. I have a comfortable and well-maintained home. I have a comfortable bed, a decent kitchen, and an office to work in. I have a job I enjoy and that pays for my needs and occasional wants. I can travel to new places at least once a year and can see friends and family on a some-what regular basis.

In my ideal life I have come to terms with who I am. I am physically, mentally, and emotionally healthy, and have time to do things I love. I have found a good balance between work and play, and am maintaining healthy relationships with family, friends, and a romantic partner.

I don’t know what I want to do yet, and I don’t know where I want to go, but I do hope that I’ll know when I get there.

 

Housemate

Writing Challenge: July 6, 2018

Prompt: Your cat keeps darting across the room like it’s chasing something. One day you finally see it.

It’s just something cats do- randomly darting across the room and attacking air. I always thought it was their way of getting rid of excess energy. Then, I saw it.

I’ve always seen flitting shadows of would-be creatures. I rationalized these visions as being tricks of the light or my own imagination- but this time- this time I could clearly see it. There was not rationalizing this away. I could clearly see the little troll-like creature that my cat Spook chased into a corner.

At first the little creature huddle close to the wall- her green-shirted back toward me and her head bowed low, then, seeing that she was trapped, he turned to face her aggressor with a surprising bravery. She swatted at spook with her little arms, bopping my surprised cat on the nose. I rushed over to pick up the stunned feline before she could retaliate.

“I’m sorry.” I said to the little creature with my angry cat in my arms. “You can run now if you want to.”

The little troll girl looked up at me- her big brown eyes fill with surprise.

“Thank you.” She squawked and ran around the corner.

Somehow, I knew that she had always been there. I knew that all this time she had been living with me, unseen but always present. Somehow, I knew that now that I had seen her once, I’d see her again. Maybe we could become friends.

 

The Taste of Sunshine

Writing Challenge: July 3, 2018

Prompt: What does sunshine taste like?

 

Sunshine tastes the way gold looks; it tastes like bright fruits, and warm grains. It tastes like tanned skin, hard work, laughter, and an afternoon nap. Sunshine tastes like tropical mango, and island pineapple. It tastes like peach cobbler and fresh lemonade. It tastes like peanut butter sandwiches and potato chips. Sunshine tastes like childhood memories and big dreams. It tastes like hope and determination. It tastes like excitement and relaxation. Sunshine tastes like happiness.